Girl in Black Denim

"There is nothing worse than the feeling you have when you are about to sleep, then, once you close your eyes you see a truck running you down. Or, you see yourself falling in a deep whole, or driving your car backwards with no control over the wheel, till you crash.

These shots of dreams, I don’t really know what to call them; because I’m not sleeping when I see those visions, I am more tired, too tired to sleep and too tired to wake up. My brain is trying to work but instead of developing new thoughts, it transforms the thoughts that is trying to develop into some ugly form of my fears, a form that I did not know my imagination has.

It is a swirl of nightmares. I go through the day with fear that a monster will attack me at any time; feeding on my tender body and enjoying the scene of my blood spilled on the floor. This is not all, there are also ghosts made of black smoke haunting me, following me everywhere, they are like my shadow but the weigh much more. Back problems that I’m having are the results of those smoky heavy ghosts, and I have nothing in hand except to wait for their mercy to get off my back."

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