Paradise Lost

Same like always, words are bursting out of my head and I cannot find any better way than writing them down here. But this time is different, the feeling I am having is really weird, my head is spinning, my stomach hurts, I feel like I belong to a different dimension. Am I an alien? All these feelings have a cause, it might be logical and it might be not, it all depends on the way you look at it. What annoys me in this time of year is how humans some times get so low in participating in one of life's ... what I can call..ummm, reasons to act stupid? It is a celebration, I know that, but there are some acts which confuses me. Why cannot it be normal for people to celebrate without letting the devil playing all around our happy times! Here in my country; Kuwait, people like to celebrate, they like to dance also. But they do it in the streets, where the cars should be, isn't that wrong? Can't they do it in their homes and be happy among their family members! It would be really...

Thoughts just crushing the waves of my mind as if they were attacking my brain, and they do not want to win, but just make a lot of mess. I have no idea where to start, but what really pops into my head right now is a thought about happiness. The idea is that how can we know what really makes us happy, and how can we work on it in order to make real. When I think of happiness I see it in two different ways; one when you feel happy because you know you are achieving something good in this world, something that will reflect on people and on you especially. The other way is when you feel surrounded by the people you love, and see them caring about you and share all the precious moments that one can dream of. It is that heavenly feelings that tells you everything is going to be okay. For me, happiness has been in important issue. I always think of it as some kind of dilemma. Do we need to be happy all the time? Just imagine with me a daily life of laughter and smiles, nothing else, no sadn...

We all know that life has many obstacles, and because we are humans, we tend to face these obstacles all the time. Not just that, we also tend to face a lot of problems, the hard to be solved kind, only because at some moment we have made some stupid decision. Although, a stupid decision does not necessirly mean that we are stupid. The human mind meets a lot of destractions that might be from the person himself or from things around him. The heroic deed here is to get through them without making a big mess. A new beginning, these words gives the implication that there will be a fresh start once the problems are over. But, this freshness cannot be felt unless this person have a good plan for what his new beginning will be. The first thing is to set the goals, the second is to to have the deteriment to acheive these goals. However, before that, there is something really important, the step number zero. This step asks us to learn from the past, and then, dumb it in the nearest trash can a...

I cannot believe it has been 1 year since I wrote my first post in here, surely time goes by! I am glad that I had time to share some of me thoughts woth public, and I hope that it has made a change in some of view, because this is really my goal. Life contains so many complications that I would like to write about. Of course, I cannot write about them all, first, I am not an expert, and second, they are many things! So, I wish this blog will improve with the coming days. And inshallah I will write more than the usual. I can tell that this year has all of things hiding for me, so I am waiting. And I hope I am ready to face it all :) last but not least, thank you all guys for the support, it really means a lot to me. Love you all guys,

XD I just Loved this pic! found it on dailybooth. Can u remember Cookie Monster?? He's my favorite!!

I don't know if it just me or this happens also to other people. Since my beloved 'William'(my iphone) is being fixed, I had to get back to the old style and listen to my old CDs. Unfortunately, it wasn't a good idea. I picked up a CD which I made 2 years before..I called it 'Flemix' (don't ask why!) and I felt that all the songs are attacking me and holding my heart with a hard grip. I began shouting at the stereo and I hit it with my hands, it was a crazy thing to do but it was just annoying... I might be feeling bad because I finished today my registration for my last semester in college, and some how I feel so lost and scared because after that will be all serious and I really don't have a clue where to start... Anyways, weird things are happening to me these days and it is really strange. I think of it as winter saying goodbye or something...and I know this has nothing to do with it. Didn't you ever feel like the songs you are listening to are s...

It is one of these moments that I got nothing to write about, yet I am here putting my fingers on the keyboard and typing, God knows why! It just there is not much to say, and this is a reason to let one think of his future and the things he really wants. Of course not only boredom can be the reason for thinking. Sometimes a person pass through experiences, even simple, but it can make him think of a lot of different things, such as his life... My life...what I want to do?! I want many things, great things that will make me feel that I am somebody who really worth living. Some one alive.. And guys, believe me, although we are breathing and practicing our daily lives, but I am sorry to bring you this sad news, that's not living. Just look at the other people and see how much they achieved, then compare it with what you have done, is it fair enough? I'd like to think that I will be one of those people who can achieve something that worth to be mentioned, not only now, but even hu...

WOW! I am so excited. I have been dreaming to do this for months, and now I did it..with a big smile! Do you wanna know what I actually did? It is that killing cake...The Molten Chocolate cake!!!! It is actually one of the most delicious cakes ever!! Its texture is like pudding and its taste is magnificent..especially the first bite...it simply takes you to a heavenly state of mind..then adding the vanilla ice cream!! Just incredible. And I actually did it! I am so excited LOL. I did not think that it will end up successfully, because I always mess up with the ingredients and the mixing ( I actually messed up with the egg white and the egg yolk but that did not make much difference. Bottom line ...I DID IT!!

In my last post I have mentioned that I am looking for an adventure. Well, I went to look for one, hoping to find something a little bit more exciting than siting at home and blogging, but I do not think that I found my missing adventure, because all I saw is teenagers who have nothing to do except fooling around with their weird looks and freaky attitude. Although, I have managed to ignore all of them, like always, by fictionalizing the reality. Let's give it a shot... As I went out of my home I went to the gas station to prepare my car to look for this coming adventure, after I we were ready, I started to think of my next destination. I began driving, there were weird sounds all over me, it was like being inside a big theater where the actors were finalizing their scenes. I wondered where these sounds coming from, there was really a loud voice, and as I was driving it got louder. At that moment I was next to the beach. I parked the car and went to have a walk in order to know whe...

Nothing important. I am just thinking of a useful way to spend my time these days. I have plenty things to do, but for some reason I feel like I am wasting my time. It is really stupid. I have done everything. reading, writing, blogging, watching movies and TV shows, and even cooking! But still I am so bored, I am thinking of an adventure, something new that will let me experience a new edge of life. I know what I am talking about is impossible since we are living in one of the most boring places. But still, they always say that you can find adventures everywhere...or something like that.